Am I Really that Special?

I can't thank all of you enough for your kind words, thoughts, and prayers. I am still having a rough time, especially since the kids are still asking questions. Whenever I turn on the computer to find yet another comment, or even better a blog post that actually mentions me, it just lights my world. I cannot tell you how much the simple act of entering this world and reading about other people's days or maybe even problems has humbled me. We are still in the process of praying, and trying to decide what to do next. Though we decided to have Cappy cremated and have his ashes returned to us, we are still unsure of what to do with them. Do we include the kids in spreading them or will this just cause them more confusion. We keep going back and forth over whether getting a new dog would help them or make things worse. They are so little they don't seem to be able to comprehend the concept of death. Reagan keeps asking if when Cappy gets better we can go get him. Or sometimes she seems to understand a little because she'll ask if Cappy is in heaven forever, and say we're never gonna see him again. Yesterday Dee Dee went to the front door and opened it. When I asked what she was doing she said she was looking for Cappy and asked if he was outside. I am at loss of how to better explain it to them. Maybe a new dog would be a good distraction. But, the thought of ever having to go through this again is overwhelming. Plus, I don't want a new dog I am selfish and I want the old one back.

Thanks to all of you for listening and for reaching out. Thanks to Kam who gave me another Smile Award. I would re-post it and give out more, but I don't think I have that many bloggy friends. I saved some of them for the people I gave awards to. I know many of you may be visiting me from other places. If that's the case please feel free to leave me a comment! I love knowing whose reading. Plus, I also love visiting new people and their blogs. I'm sure there isn't anything else I could be doing with my free time! Hah. Until next time...